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Hello let me start off by saying my name is Adam. I live in Mesa Ariozona. I am 23 and I live at home with my parents(Yes I know). This journal is a human experiment. An expose on love.

I have been in love with one woman in my life, I was engaged to her, then I broke up with her. Year went by and she had a new boyfriend. She now has plans toget married next summer. After that I don't think i've really loved again. I had basic fuck buddies and booty calls, but not love. The begining of '08 I got into another relationship that lasted 6 months. She said she loved me etc. But I didn't feel that way. We later broke up. In December of last year I got to know this really great girl whom I adored. She was beautiful in everyway and I was falling for her. She liked me but wanted to take it slow, which was fine. But then day after Christmas she hurts herself and went away for a bit, came back and things were never the same. And just recently I just got out of a relationship with a girl whom fell in love with me, loved me, wanted to be with me etc. And I didn't feel the same way again. I couldn't deal with her massive mood swings etc, and I broke up with her.

And thats where this project begins. Because of those failed relationships, and my lack of being able to commit I started a human experiment. A scientific exploration of myself and love. I am trying to figure out if I block myself from feeling it because of my past, or do I throw away perfectly good women who love me but I can't seem to love them? So I'm giving myself one year, 365 days to figure out; why I fail at love, do I block myself from loving back, do I even love myself, or have I really just not found the right person? I will be blogging, writing, taking notes of all the things that happen in my life with anything to do with love and hopefully learning in the process. So hopefully this will soon get a following and you can all come along for the ride as I document the 365 Days To Love.

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